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| After I had dreamt this dream, I couldn't go back to sleep. I don't know if you can classify it as a nightmare, but it definitely woke me up. It went a little something like this: I'm in my home in San Diego. I'm about to leave the house in my mom's SUV. I get in, turn the ignition on, and back out of the garage. One thing you should know about our house is that our driveway is on a hill, and the other side of the street is fenced off to another house below the street. Basically, from my house to the other house is one huge down slope, separated by a metal fence. Now, as I'm backing out, I press the brakes to start turning into the street. But I notice the brakes don't work! So, I quickly switch into drive and slam on the accelerator. The car jumps forward, and then I release the accelerator once I start going forward because otherwise I'll run into my house wall. I realize there's nothing I can do to stop the car until I'm at the bottom of the hill. So, I devise a plan to turn into the driveway and go to the bottom of the hill to let gravity stop me. But lo and behold, my turn is too slow and I run into the fence of the other house and my car flips over. My car starts rolling down the hill, and I stop right before I hit the other house. But then I crawl out alive with not a scratch. And then I woke up. The last thing I remember is my staring at my mom's car burning next to my neighbor's house as I stand 10 yards away in bewilderment.
I tried going back to sleep but I kept replaying my dream over and over in black and white. I just remembered that I got into my accident... because my bicycle brakes also didn't work. What an idiot.
Can someone decipher this dream for me?
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| Every time I realize I forgot something or someone, I find that I am guilty of not praying for that thing (how it regards myself and others) or that someone. Really, really humbling.
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| I went to my Korean teacher's office hours to get my essay checked out. After he had finished looking over my paper, he asked if I had eaten lunch yet. I said no, and he asked if I wanted to eat with him. How weird! I had never had a meal with a teacher/professor before... well, that's not true because we had lunch with our research group every week during the summer. But not so casually, and not out of obligation. Especially not by request. And on the way, we ran into a girl from K111 who wanted her paper checked also. And then right outside of Dwinelle, another couple girls called him asking if they can have their papers checked too. He asked all of them if they wanted to eat lunch. So, it was me, my Korean teacher and three senior girls who were all taking Korean 111, not 101 which is the one I'm taking. Man, that was most definitely a first time experience. Lunch with four complete strangers. Yet, four precious human souls whose hearts must be conformed to the Gospel. It was a delightful experience. I got to know my teacher more than anyone else at the table, including how he met his wife, his life in America, his life in Korea... we even talked a little about Korean politics. It's the swift learning of my contacts that I must train myself to do; so that I may be able to tailor the Gospel to their need.
Quite the joyful experience! I'm going to like my Korean class. Maybe I should have started taking it earlier than my senior year. -----------------------------------
On a completely different note, I've been thinking a lot about suffering. I like what Tim Keller says in The Reason for God:
There may be no greater inner agony than the loss of a relationship we desperately want. If a mild acquaintance turns on you, condemns and criticizes you, and says she never wants to see you again, it is painful. But if your spouse does this to you, or if one of your parents does this to you when you're still a child, the psychological damage is infinitely worse. We cannot fathom, however, what it would be like to lose not just spousal love or parental love that has lasted several years, but the infinite love of the Father that Jesus had from all eternity. Jesus' sufferings would have been eternally unbearable. Christian theology has always recognized that Jesus bore, as the substitute in our place, the endless exclusion from God that the human race has merited... If we again ask the question: "Why does God allow evil and suffering to continue?" and we look at the cross of Jesus, we still do not know what the answer is. However, we now know what the answer isn't. It can't be that he doesn't love us. It can't be that he is indifferent or detached from our condition. God takes our misery and suffering so seriously that he was willing to take it on himself... So, if we embrace the Christian teaching that Jesus is God and that he went to the Cross, then we have deep consolation and strength to face the brutal realities of life on earth. We can know that God is truly Immanuel--God with us--even in our worst sufferings... Embracing the Christian doctrines of the incarnation and Cross brings profound consolation in the face of suffering. The doctrine of the resurrection can instill us with a powerful hope. It promises that we will get the life we most longed for, but it will be an infinitely more glorious world than if there had never been the need for bravery, endurance, sacrifice, or salvation.
How can one whose soul has been redeemed by the the Cross not be moved by such depth of love? Ultimately, the point of suffering is to bring us once again to Christ. And it saddens me that I pray for my dad to suffer so that he may come to know Christ, but in our sinfulness and rebellion, it just might be what we need.
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| So, I found out on Friday that my Associate Pastor Kevin Hsu prays for me and marriage really often... a lot more often than I pray for myself regarding the topic. He mentioned it was at the top of the list of prayer requests for me. I don't know exactly the content of his prayers, but "The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much." (James 5:16b). Hahaha. Hilarious!
Seriously... a real update coming soon!
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